it feels like christmas eve.

finally its time for lara to hop on the blog bandwagon! and of course for some reason i felt i had to wait until i was leaving raleigh to legitimately start a blog my friends would deem worthy. well its time people. this time tomorrow i will be over the Atlantic and on my way to italia! i usually dont freak out about things like this. well, thats a lie. i dont freak out compared to my mom. she freaks out. i freak out, but besides the common knowledge that im the most emotional person on the planet, italy does seem really fucking far. but ill get over it. because i honestly absolutely love this stuff. i love the search for something more. however, i momentarily hate the feeling in my chest i get when i think about the fact that i have no idea what my life will be like after tomorrow. some people like this feeling. i dont really appreciate it, because it kindof feels like i might have a heart attack. i cant imagine where i will be sleeping or what i'll be doing in a week, but none the less i do know its going to be something ill remember forever, and an experience i will absolutely love. and now that i have packed every last article of clothing i can stuff in my two 49.5 lb. suitcases (50 lbs is the limit come on pay attention) i feel like i just have to show up and see what happens. So here goes nuthin.



oh and dont worry, i packed the mace.